slacker...

well, just like what i had mention on the title...
i had been a super big slacker this few days...
or should i say weeks...
entertainment show, drama, activities, PONTENG...
sgh...

can't go on like this...
gotta wake up...
gotta move on...
gotta start study...

why i say that???
because i had found a new source of energy...
new purpose to study...
and i want to maintain it...

gotta bring back those passion i had for study...
at least 30% back will be enough for me to score well...
my 30%, please come back...
because,
i don't want to be lost again...
i hate that labyrinth...
while i also felt thakful since it only labyrinth that company me throughout all these months...




and maybe chyi zhi was right...
i had found myself a target already...
just that i still don't want to admit it...
P.S: chyi zhi, just keep this between the two of us, thanks...

determined

made up my mind...
more than 60% of my time in university...
i'm gonna spend it on my academics...
the 40% left will be my sleeping time, entertainment time....

made up my mind on reestablish my social communication with others...
i wasted my 1 year time...
and i only made a few friends(irreplaceable type)...

games...
i'll minimize it...
really, i'll minimize it till like 2-3% of my time...

my stamina...
gonna start building it up...
gonna start train myself...
train my body...
and i hope this plan will last...

lastly...
i think i'm gonna have a complicated relationship...
and i hope it won't last too long...

recently...
i'm in love...
love to take pictures' of flowers...
and picture of different items...

problematic

argh...!!!
windmill...
handphone...
iphone...
LV bag...
psp...
credit card...

i got to make all those stuff within today for the drama...
and how am i gona finish that?!?!
hope that i manage to finish those things...



well, after having my hair cut...
half of the comment i receive is CUTE??!!??!?!?!
what the h***, are they sure about that???
cute???
with this kind of face???
but, well, i still quite happy with it even that it fake...
because they don't want to hurt me, ^^


and my leg...
my ankle...
it getting worst...
i'm quite scare with it...
haven let my family know about that...
and they doesn't know about this blog...
should i go for another X-ray???
should i go for the doctor again???
or should i just let it be...

well, it doesn't matter...
not like i have plenty of time for going to the hospital...
and lately, been out of the sports activity...
so should be no problem...
and on sunday, i got a drum performance, wish me luck ya...

:P

it been a long time since my last post...
feel sorry for that...
well, i got nothing much to share with...
but from now on, i'll start my blogging once again...
with tons of weird stuff...
continue with my weird essay...
so, hope you all got the patience to read those stuff...
thanks...

speak it out...

alone...
one person...
is what i had been enjoying...
and it had making my communicating skill's start to rot...
i been scare to approach any group that is combine by more than 2 ppl...
i been trying to avoid to have more relation to the world i living in...
i been acting weird and starting to become someone i don't understand...
i'm a complete stranger to myself...
i got no more confident about anything...

everyone around me seems to hate me...
they seems to dislike me, and don't want to have any relation with me...
therefore...
i separate myself from my classmate...
i don't want to anoy any of them...
i don't want to show that i need their concern...
because they never will concern me...

i'm the one who always being forget in the class...
i'm invisible in the class...
i'm not exist in their world...
or just a person who passby in their life which doesn't need to be remembered...
ya, a comlete stranger...
and a stranger who know his place...

should i be sad?
should i be happy?
should i be trouble?
should i try to change any of those?
no...
because even i change, there will be no one will notice me...
no one will love me (except my family...)...
therefore i will only care for my family...
and those who remember me...
who care me...
and who is injured, no matter in physical or mentally...

the new me...
i don't know how to introduce...
but i'm sure i'll be able to say out who am i, confidently...
who and how is the real me...

woohooo~~~
moon festival for utem had just over...
been busy for weeks because of this event...
been painting backdrop(drawing and colouring "chjang er")...
been practicing for the 24 season drum performance...
and finally, we perform it nearly perfect(for our standard, which only practice for 5~6 practice gathering time)...
the only sad thing is they remove the solo part...
haha...

hmm...
the only thing i can say is, the atmosphere is very high...
even the malays and indians they all enjoy the night...
just that that night suddently raining, sigh...
happy photo taking period, happy ss(siok sendiri) dancing period, and etc...
it been a long time i been so high...
and what did you know, next event, spring festival...
i'm all in... haha...

where's all those photos???
sry, i'm not gona upload it in my blog, if u want to watch it,
please, go to my facebook, haha...
go to the album that i had been tag in, and u'll seen much of it ^^

well, i think i'm fully back to the jeffrey you all know...
and i start to trouble by different kind of stuff....
so, the only way to distract is study, playing, singing, and dancing... haha...
wish me luck guys, i want to be like i used to be, the no troubles jeffrey... ^^