it's near again...

it coming near again to new year...
and i don't know why...
a hidden memory comes back to me...
the memory i had "long ago" during new year...
so sweet...
so happy...
and yet, so fast it ended and dissapeared...
and now, it went back to me...
although it short, but it still my happiest moment...
if i have a restart in my life, i won't regret doing it again...
and i hope do able to create more memories before it end...
so that i can have something more to feel happy again...
well...
yup, it not about new year at all...
i'm just babling something in my heart and mind....
i will always remember those memories and never forget...
so that i can always feel those happy feelings again...

p.s.:i know it not making sence to readers, i apologize, sorry, it just something i gotta write out for myself... thanks for the understanding ^^

step into a whole new world...

it scary...
should be something that scary...
but don't know why...
i was calm when all those happens...

this morning...
when the time i woke up...
the world in my eyes had became black and white...
and slowly...
i see yellow...
then, orange, blue...
green and pink is the last colour that comes back to me...
am i gona become colour blind???
or i'm gona be blind???

but during all those happens...
it was beautiful...
when the colour slowly comes back...
i sudently realise how wonderfull the world IS whith all those colours...
if i really gona be clolour blind or total blind...
i hope to at least get to see a few more places...
places that God creates...
see the world...
see the nature, the view that after God create, God say "it is good"...
i hope to be able to do that...

one word....

STRESSSS!!!!

yup, finally i got the chance to say this word...

it means a lot for me

6-11-2011

holidaysss...
back in jb...
and back to batu pahat...
hehe...

batu pahat, my birthplace...
we went to eat something that i had miss out for yearsss...
"kue zhap"







yup, thats "kue zhap"...
my childhood favorite, hehe....
and follow up is "算盘子"(not sure the wording correct anot...
it my grandma's cooking...
and i like her cooking, hehe...
it also a dishes i haven eaten for years...




other then that...
my chilhood's playground...
lol... ok, it a backyard...
but it full of precious memories...





and night time, supper time...
juz waffle...







i feel sorry for my younger brother...
because i only realise that i didn't took his photo when we reach home...

holidaysss...(7 days)

yup, one week of holidays...
and i started to lost my aim for my holidays...
alone in my hostel room for one day...
and it so gonna happen exactly the same when i'm back to JB...
alone whole day in my room...

but the only thing i'm very sure is~~~
i'm gonna have healthy food for one whole week~~~
wow yeah~~~

been drinking approximate 5 cup of coffe per day...
maggie mee as lunch for almost 3 days per week...
skiped lunch for almost 3 times per week...
maggie mee as dinner for almost 5 days per week...
skiped dinner for almost 2 times per week...
average :nasi goreng pattaya/ mee goreng / nasi goreng 1 plate per week...
and ping pong biscuit 2 standard packet per week...

and this is the reason i say "wow yeah" for the healthy food week...

and pluss+++
get to have a much more normal sleeping hour...
how much i had slept recently, you don't wannt to know that...

which means, this holiday is going to be my health care week...
wishes me luck on my holidays...
i'll need it because assignment is the one and only obsticles that endangering my plan...
happy holidays~~~(for those who had)

my guitar

wakaka...
brought a guitar...
and i'm self learning guitar right now...
while learning a specific song...
gitaroo man : the legendary theme song...
like this song alot...

slacker...

well, just like what i had mention on the title...
i had been a super big slacker this few days...
or should i say weeks...
entertainment show, drama, activities, PONTENG...
sgh...

can't go on like this...
gotta wake up...
gotta move on...
gotta start study...

why i say that???
because i had found a new source of energy...
new purpose to study...
and i want to maintain it...

gotta bring back those passion i had for study...
at least 30% back will be enough for me to score well...
my 30%, please come back...
because,
i don't want to be lost again...
i hate that labyrinth...
while i also felt thakful since it only labyrinth that company me throughout all these months...




and maybe chyi zhi was right...
i had found myself a target already...
just that i still don't want to admit it...
P.S: chyi zhi, just keep this between the two of us, thanks...