count down...

wow, time pass with an enormous speed, end of may already?!?!?! count down four more day for one important event in my life.... june holiday trip? i dunno....count down 16 days to my final day in work... count down one month to know whether i get to enter university anot.... but still... i still counting my 4 years waiting... hope it can pass by faster....

kluang

early in the morning, set of to kluang... when reach kluang, terus watch "小胖流浪记"(fatty liu lang ji) =.=lll and in the afternoon, i been sleeping... feels so GOOD, wakakakaka....

well... didnt come out as aspected... not so sad in the end, haha...
i "visit" my grandmother to day in kluang, told her what i did recently, my result, my work, my relationship... quite ok loh... haha...

having a feast in kluang, my big aunt's cooking, haha, enjoy vv much, especially the curry fish head, haha...

tats all gua, cos i dont know wat to write edi... T.T

doubt

why there are doubt? is to justified something we unsure?or to find n gain more reason for us to confirm our stand? or to change our view, our decision to a 180 degree changes? where is our confident? our confident to trust, to believe? is it that far and out of our reach?

i once doubt my feelings... and in the end, i had justified it true.
i once worried... but i manage to find reason to carry on my journey.
i once dissapoint... disapoint that i dount before... and because of doubt, now, i gain confident on what i believe... but confident could not hold long when there is only one ppl who trust on it, it will need another to support, another to provide more reason, and another to trust togather...

how long can i hold my trust? how long can i hold my confident? how long...

finally...

well, after a long long long long time, i get to update my blog edi, ^^
been working tis few months, in singapore... n my wireless connection hav problem, so only now get to update my blog again...^^

well, everything goes fine, just tat feel quite lonely n boring... because i had been re-do all the same thing everyday...wake up, rush to get on that bus kilang, cross custom, eat bekfast at woodland centre, then go to my working place in yishun, then sit in front of the computer and check all the number n alphabet for 11 hours, then go hm (which include passing custom n wait my parent to pick me up at station one)... only nite tim i feel more happy , maybe because get to msg her bah...

seldom contact all my fren edi, my form 3 till form 6's friends... only still stay in touch with less then 10 fren's... yup, no typing error, it less then 10, it a single digit...haha... but still, feel satisfied edi, cos at least i know there are still ppl rmb me ^^

well, i gona let my fren know about my blog soon... for now, there's only one person know my blog... still considering whether i wan to delete my previous post or keep it... cos will feel paiseh if let them saw my older post... haha... cos it all wat i really feel n really think snd post it out without any rephrase, without any changes,feel like i just put out my heart n put it out to let ppl c... haha... we'll wait n see bah, whether i keep or erase...

tats all bah... start from now, i gona try update my blog at least once per week... gambateh neh...

so many week has pass...miss her...