freak

i'm a freak???maybe...
reason???
i'm too tall...
i'm sorta have multiple personality...
i can be very stupid...
i can be very childish...
i can be very mature...
i can be very gentle...
i can talk a lot of nonsense...
i can talk a lot of logical stuff...
i can talk in different tones when speak with different people...
i had seen a lot of stuff happening...
i experience many things and situation...
and therefore, every time when i start talking...
there are people feel that i'm normal...
noisy...
talkative...
bluffing...
lying...
self enjoying...
being proud...
making up stories...
and in the end, i'm a freak that fakes myself every where...

well, there's nothing i can do...
really...
cause that's the way i am...
you may feel that i'm bluffing while i'm not...
you may feel that i'm acting but i'm not...
you may feel that i'm stupid while i'm trying to make you laugh...
you may feel that i'm proud by saying what i had seen while i just want to share and talk to you...
you may think i a fake person while i'm actually standing just in front of you...
you may think i don't care how other people think...
but i do care....
and it hurts all the time...

i do try change....
but in the end....
when ever the time i change....
i feel myself fake cause i'm really is faking myself to be someone i'm not...
so...
i rather to be a freak...
i don't want to become someone else in your memories...
i just want to be me...