i'm not thinking straight lately...
wanted to be alone...
wanted to do something i never did...
something weird...
something new...

i brought myself a smoke pipe...
hilarious right???
i brought a lot of stuff i don't even needed to...
and i wanted to try all of them and know more about the world...

it feels like the devil had success on seduce me to do the wrong thing...
i feel like losing but i don;t feel wrong about it...
i hate this to happen...

i miss the time i been with God...
the time i serve him and pray for him...
i miss the night we chat almost everything...
i miss the nights...

this song.....

this song

Even though I want to buy you a pretty necklace
Even though I want to take you out on a ride in a nice car
Even though I want to dress you in nice clothes
Even though I want to take you to nice places

This hand that I put inside my pocket grabs nothing
How can I get you
My position doesn’t suit you
Regardless, can you stay by my side

The only thing I can give is this song
All I have is this voice
Even if this makes you laugh
But I still sing
I hope you accept it

Even if you say it’s okay
Even if you say it’s okay if I have you
Even if you say you’re happy everyday
Even if you say you don’t what anything more

Pretty, good things; fun, cool things
You obviously want to do these things too Baby
You know that if you stay by my side I can’t do these things
Regardless, can you stay by my side

The only thing I can give is this song
All I have is this voice
Even if this makes you laugh
But I still sing
I hope you accept it

I only have this song
I really have nothing but this voice
I don’t know if this will make you laugh
But I still sing
I hope you accept it
I hope you accept it

[20131012][0252]

well...
i'm back in Johor Bahru...
home sweet home....

first thing i did in my room is sleeping... lol...
well, i'm very tired due to my "busy" campus life...
"very busy"...

now that i'm back...
i hope i can take the opportunity to made up my mind...
should i reformat my laptop???
should i buy a new one instead???
i got too many important data need to be backed up...
while my hard disk space are ALL in red alert...

feel like crying for my situation....

daily troubles

my habits...
sleeping habits...
used to stop sleeping at night so that i can "wake up" in time for shuttle bus...
after spending some time, i manage to change it to not happen frequently...
but unfortunately...
it still there with me...
and it had been happen more frequently these few days...
and yet, i'm not in campus today due to no more shuttle bus after 9am...
should i change back to my "wake up early" method??
or should i change my alarm clock into dangerous painful device?

sigh...
i want to make the change...
i need help...
sigh...