GoodBye

This will be the last time i blog on this webpage...
the blog i used to visit had been stop for years...
it just seems that it my turn to let go of this place...
every time i wrote here, it reminds me of that specific blogger...
it just makes me hard to forget...

since i had already made up my mind to let go everything about her months ago...
i think i had to let go of this blog page too...

move on to the next steps...
move into the future...
Goodbye my viewers...
May God bless you on your life journey...

and hope that i will never return to this blog page again...

saddest day , for now...

now i understand no matter how hard i tried... 

he will never understand how i really felt...

because his worried, anger and imagination will always block away my words and feelings from him... 

what i said will always be the opposite meaning...

is it that hard to understand my words?

is it that hard to feel that how i care for him?? is it that hard to see that i had been trying my best to suppress myself every time u start overreacting?

why by just sharing what i saw today can lead to mass murderer? why by sharing my personality, so that u can know me more can lead to insulting you and despise you? i just want to share news to you... i just want to share joy with you... i just want to have the bonding with you...

why is it so hard???

now i understand why people choose to leave their home, choose to end their life... 

it is tempting, seriously... since i was young, i had been wanted to leave my home... i been wanted to end my own life...

even now, the though will still come to my mind... why don't i just leave, safe myself from all the unnecessary argument...

all the unnecessary misunderstanding... everything was so cool until we start to talk... until i comeback ....

i want to solve things out, i really do... it just that i can't....

things will always turn bad when we talk...

what else can i do now?

moving forward

everyone tends to move on for a better life...
so am i...
recently, i had been moving forward...
moving forward with action and decision i would never made...
i don't really know is it right or wrong...
but i believe that everyone deserve a chance on becoming more...
lets hope everything is on the right track...
and hope God will let me know more about it...