speak it out...

alone...
one person...
is what i had been enjoying...
and it had making my communicating skill's start to rot...
i been scare to approach any group that is combine by more than 2 ppl...
i been trying to avoid to have more relation to the world i living in...
i been acting weird and starting to become someone i don't understand...
i'm a complete stranger to myself...
i got no more confident about anything...

everyone around me seems to hate me...
they seems to dislike me, and don't want to have any relation with me...
therefore...
i separate myself from my classmate...
i don't want to anoy any of them...
i don't want to show that i need their concern...
because they never will concern me...

i'm the one who always being forget in the class...
i'm invisible in the class...
i'm not exist in their world...
or just a person who passby in their life which doesn't need to be remembered...
ya, a comlete stranger...
and a stranger who know his place...

should i be sad?
should i be happy?
should i be trouble?
should i try to change any of those?
no...
because even i change, there will be no one will notice me...
no one will love me (except my family...)...
therefore i will only care for my family...
and those who remember me...
who care me...
and who is injured, no matter in physical or mentally...

the new me...
i don't know how to introduce...
but i'm sure i'll be able to say out who am i, confidently...
who and how is the real me...