well... been trying to ask anyone of my fren to go out with me... why?? i tired of sitting in my room n wait for the time to rot my body and spirit... been feeling empty... something really had gone missing... well, at least today get to ask fynn out with her siblings... walk around following them... having a few conversation... then take them hm... well, not bad actually... but something seems wrong... wat went wrong i dunno...
tis few days, i been feeling something not right... bad omen... i'm dying?? hmm... well... dun care... if it true tat i'm dying... then the first thing i gona do is do everyhing she hate so that she gona hate me until even when she heard jeff she gona close her ear n stop listen... so that news wont spread to her... if not i'm gona die, then nvm... wakakaka... think too much edi...
well... i plan something a head, but i haven tell my parent... will they aprove??
headache getting better edi, good sign, n becos of this week unknown sickness, my balloon becom smaller edi...
the reason for headache, i think i got some clue edi... first, is becos my family... my parents querrel gave me too much sress... 2nd is the uni confirmation, the day is getting nearer n nearer, so more stress... 3rd, my relative all so native n clueless that their so call help for my parent is actually sugar to active children, make it worst only...4th, my relative all keep asking my dad about my uni confirmation, n it indirectly cause me a lot of questioning from my dad, n is also indirectly cause me stress... STRESS is the cause of my headache, end of story.
advise for reader's pls, beware of stress...
if u felt that my post is vv messy, my apologize, cos i just simply type every incident n thought directly into the post whenever they pop out of my mind when i type, so...i'm sry.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Friday, June 4, 2010
cause of my headache...
my parents querrel again... i had lost count it occur how many times during tis few weeks... my dad start to take loan from bank but still forbidden my mum to go work... lol... they both stubborn... always the same subject, same line, same argument, same reaction, the querrel just like repeated everyday... woke up in the morning, the first thing i hesard is their querrel... be4 sleep, last thing i heard also is their querrel... damn, i couldn't do anything... i tried many times... and due to the same reason (my freaquency n my dad freaquency are always different) my dad always misunderstand wat i said n then end up messy... sigh... my relative call my parent, intend to help, but they support everything my dad say without using their brain to think... they judge things without knowing the whole story... they support my dad because they know ntg about wat had happen n thought everything my dad say is correct... the problem is, my parent they both wrong... i felt tired edi, stress, i even wan to give up uni n go work for my whole life..why? cos my dad not working for years, my mum being ask to resign, no income for the family... i cannot create gold out of water, n water also ned money to buy... lol... i been thinking about this matter for weeks n in the ednd, i been sick for days... even now when i start to think of this my headache bac again...sigh... i'm a total failure, wat can i do...
sick week
monday(31th of may)
ate something wrong, make me stomachache, feel like vomit... and somemore heavy headache... therefore, i took mc n went hm... on the way i brought a novel name "the magician's apprentice(by trudi canavan)"... and then suffer at hm for the rest of the day, except sms time....
tuesday(1st of june)
when to work, but the vomit feeling become worst, headache also... the nurse dun let me c doctor, cos i gona stop working after next week(i resign) so cannot take mc... therefore i tahan for the rest of the day while working outside of the office(carrying, picking, folding...) and becos of this, i took pto( paid over time leave) for wednesday...
wedsday(2nd of june)
sleep till 10.40am... but i sleep on 4 am in the morning... my alarm rang at 6 but i didnt heard it, therefore, no morning call for honey... then i bath n then inform yi sin that i gona go n fetch her n then go terbau jusco watch movie n eat lunch+breakfast... so we reach jusco at around 1 something, then i saw gao gao, sss and storm... n i talk to a girl which after that i found out is my fren's sister, haha... then we straight go to buy movie ticket, at first wan buy prince of persia, but then saw shrek 3, n she wan to watch, so no choice, we go n see shrek 3... 3pm movie... so we go and eat my lunch(so hungry)... after that meal, i still not full yet, but not intend to eat anymore... then i saw cizi, juan hao, erik and andy... go say hi.. walk with them a while while yi sin alone in front of the cinema( she wan sms with frens)... then after short while i fast fast go bac to cinema there... and then we enter the cinema to watch movie... well, the movie quite nice.... and then after that terus go hm... and then i steam the rice and meat... and then call my sis, bro n dad to eat dinner...and then after bath, my headache come bac again... lol...
thursday(3rd of june)
tis time, no headache... but the vomit feeling super serious... ppl in company all thought i pregnant edi(lol, i'm a guy leh) i go for company clinik again(3.30pm),wat i get is medicine only, somemore no use tat type... no choice but to beasr for the whole day again... after 7 pm, i start to feel better... maybe becos i change my breathing method n the effect of medicine finally come out after 3 hours... and then 8pm off work, when reach jb terus go meet cizi,xian jun, gao gao, ceaser and erik... we yamcha froim 10pm till 1 am...haha... chat all sort of thing... got rubbish talk for laughting... make joke of each other... let fren know their bad habits so that they change...n discussing about the desaru trip...
friday, reach hm from lim teh, terus bath n update blog....
ate something wrong, make me stomachache, feel like vomit... and somemore heavy headache... therefore, i took mc n went hm... on the way i brought a novel name "the magician's apprentice(by trudi canavan)"... and then suffer at hm for the rest of the day, except sms time....
tuesday(1st of june)
when to work, but the vomit feeling become worst, headache also... the nurse dun let me c doctor, cos i gona stop working after next week(i resign) so cannot take mc... therefore i tahan for the rest of the day while working outside of the office(carrying, picking, folding...) and becos of this, i took pto( paid over time leave) for wednesday...
wedsday(2nd of june)
sleep till 10.40am... but i sleep on 4 am in the morning... my alarm rang at 6 but i didnt heard it, therefore, no morning call for honey... then i bath n then inform yi sin that i gona go n fetch her n then go terbau jusco watch movie n eat lunch+breakfast... so we reach jusco at around 1 something, then i saw gao gao, sss and storm... n i talk to a girl which after that i found out is my fren's sister, haha... then we straight go to buy movie ticket, at first wan buy prince of persia, but then saw shrek 3, n she wan to watch, so no choice, we go n see shrek 3... 3pm movie... so we go and eat my lunch(so hungry)... after that meal, i still not full yet, but not intend to eat anymore... then i saw cizi, juan hao, erik and andy... go say hi.. walk with them a while while yi sin alone in front of the cinema( she wan sms with frens)... then after short while i fast fast go bac to cinema there... and then we enter the cinema to watch movie... well, the movie quite nice.... and then after that terus go hm... and then i steam the rice and meat... and then call my sis, bro n dad to eat dinner...and then after bath, my headache come bac again... lol...
thursday(3rd of june)
tis time, no headache... but the vomit feeling super serious... ppl in company all thought i pregnant edi(lol, i'm a guy leh) i go for company clinik again(3.30pm),wat i get is medicine only, somemore no use tat type... no choice but to beasr for the whole day again... after 7 pm, i start to feel better... maybe becos i change my breathing method n the effect of medicine finally come out after 3 hours... and then 8pm off work, when reach jb terus go meet cizi,xian jun, gao gao, ceaser and erik... we yamcha froim 10pm till 1 am...haha... chat all sort of thing... got rubbish talk for laughting... make joke of each other... let fren know their bad habits so that they change...n discussing about the desaru trip...
friday, reach hm from lim teh, terus bath n update blog....
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
count down...
wow, time pass with an enormous speed, end of may already?!?!?! count down four more day for one important event in my life.... june holiday trip? i dunno....count down 16 days to my final day in work... count down one month to know whether i get to enter university anot.... but still... i still counting my 4 years waiting... hope it can pass by faster....
Saturday, May 22, 2010
kluang
early in the morning, set of to kluang... when reach kluang, terus watch "小胖流浪记"(fatty liu lang ji) =.=lll and in the afternoon, i been sleeping... feels so GOOD, wakakakaka....
well... didnt come out as aspected... not so sad in the end, haha...
i "visit" my grandmother to day in kluang, told her what i did recently, my result, my work, my relationship... quite ok loh... haha...
having a feast in kluang, my big aunt's cooking, haha, enjoy vv much, especially the curry fish head, haha...
tats all gua, cos i dont know wat to write edi... T.T
well... didnt come out as aspected... not so sad in the end, haha...
i "visit" my grandmother to day in kluang, told her what i did recently, my result, my work, my relationship... quite ok loh... haha...
having a feast in kluang, my big aunt's cooking, haha, enjoy vv much, especially the curry fish head, haha...
tats all gua, cos i dont know wat to write edi... T.T
Friday, May 21, 2010
doubt
why there are doubt? is to justified something we unsure?or to find n gain more reason for us to confirm our stand? or to change our view, our decision to a 180 degree changes? where is our confident? our confident to trust, to believe? is it that far and out of our reach?
i once doubt my feelings... and in the end, i had justified it true.
i once worried... but i manage to find reason to carry on my journey.
i once dissapoint... disapoint that i dount before... and because of doubt, now, i gain confident on what i believe... but confident could not hold long when there is only one ppl who trust on it, it will need another to support, another to provide more reason, and another to trust togather...
how long can i hold my trust? how long can i hold my confident? how long...
i once doubt my feelings... and in the end, i had justified it true.
i once worried... but i manage to find reason to carry on my journey.
i once dissapoint... disapoint that i dount before... and because of doubt, now, i gain confident on what i believe... but confident could not hold long when there is only one ppl who trust on it, it will need another to support, another to provide more reason, and another to trust togather...
how long can i hold my trust? how long can i hold my confident? how long...
Thursday, May 20, 2010
finally...
well, after a long long long long time, i get to update my blog edi, ^^
been working tis few months, in singapore... n my wireless connection hav problem, so only now get to update my blog again...^^
well, everything goes fine, just tat feel quite lonely n boring... because i had been re-do all the same thing everyday...wake up, rush to get on that bus kilang, cross custom, eat bekfast at woodland centre, then go to my working place in yishun, then sit in front of the computer and check all the number n alphabet for 11 hours, then go hm (which include passing custom n wait my parent to pick me up at station one)... only nite tim i feel more happy , maybe because get to msg her bah...
seldom contact all my fren edi, my form 3 till form 6's friends... only still stay in touch with less then 10 fren's... yup, no typing error, it less then 10, it a single digit...haha... but still, feel satisfied edi, cos at least i know there are still ppl rmb me ^^
well, i gona let my fren know about my blog soon... for now, there's only one person know my blog... still considering whether i wan to delete my previous post or keep it... cos will feel paiseh if let them saw my older post... haha... cos it all wat i really feel n really think snd post it out without any rephrase, without any changes,feel like i just put out my heart n put it out to let ppl c... haha... we'll wait n see bah, whether i keep or erase...
tats all bah... start from now, i gona try update my blog at least once per week... gambateh neh...
so many week has pass...miss her...
been working tis few months, in singapore... n my wireless connection hav problem, so only now get to update my blog again...^^
well, everything goes fine, just tat feel quite lonely n boring... because i had been re-do all the same thing everyday...wake up, rush to get on that bus kilang, cross custom, eat bekfast at woodland centre, then go to my working place in yishun, then sit in front of the computer and check all the number n alphabet for 11 hours, then go hm (which include passing custom n wait my parent to pick me up at station one)... only nite tim i feel more happy , maybe because get to msg her bah...
seldom contact all my fren edi, my form 3 till form 6's friends... only still stay in touch with less then 10 fren's... yup, no typing error, it less then 10, it a single digit...haha... but still, feel satisfied edi, cos at least i know there are still ppl rmb me ^^
well, i gona let my fren know about my blog soon... for now, there's only one person know my blog... still considering whether i wan to delete my previous post or keep it... cos will feel paiseh if let them saw my older post... haha... cos it all wat i really feel n really think snd post it out without any rephrase, without any changes,feel like i just put out my heart n put it out to let ppl c... haha... we'll wait n see bah, whether i keep or erase...
tats all bah... start from now, i gona try update my blog at least once per week... gambateh neh...
so many week has pass...miss her...
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