well... after another night of thinking(6th of june)... my smile came back... although is not fully bac... but i did smile today... n no more moody... yesterday i so bad... whole day same expression, my parent thought i mad at them...sigh...
well, although no more moody... but still, not that active as i used to be....today diam diam one, and when i alone doing work, i start to mix word and music togather(creating songs)... but sad, i dunno any instrument, so i will nvr complete any song...
the main reason my smile bac is becos i had figured it out completely edi... wat i really ned to wait is not 4 years... is satu ayat from her... only when her heart trully confirm it, then only she MAY say it out... why may? cos she dunno wat is this ayat i'm waiting to hear...is not something sad or negative... is something that means alot... only after i heard that sentence, the real joy i will have, becos wat i believe will be real ^^ but still, maybe i ned to wait for months, or maybe years... but i dun care, i will wait n wait...
my dad ask why i wana lock myself to a girl so fast, my reply:" cos to me,she is the one..." "wat about her?" "i had to believe..."
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