i lied

i lied...
although not lied about the whole thing...
but i'm sorry, i did lied...

yes, i feel emo, thats true...
i feel miserable and confuse...
and the trouble i told is also true...
just that it is not the reason i turn emo that time...
and it true that i seems to be lost in the mist of labyrinth...
AGAIN...
why i mentioned again???
because is the same old labyrinth i thought i break through long ago...

like i mentioned before...
once you loved someone with your whole heart...
that love will never leave, it will stays on and slowly transform into care through times...
you will still care no matter what...
even when they treat you as "hi-bye" friend, normal friend, best friend or even stranger...
and it goes the same for me...

why i lied???
cause i scare...
and because i care...
i can't tell you that i seems to be back in that labyrinth...
the labyrinth which keeps question me "am i care? or love?"...
i tell myself is care...
but part of me doubt it...
because i will still react the same way, do the same thing and feel the same way i did before...

why i lied???
i scare to have another stranger in my life...
i scare to lose another person i care so much in my life...
and yet, the word clarity appears...
looks like i really have to tidy up everything....
no matter what it cause...
solve it alone or with someone...
i must take the action fast....
and i know, no matter is care or love...
i will keep the answer and tell no one...
because she seems happy for the way it is right now...
with someone love her by her side and giving her happiness...
i can still remember her smile with happiness spread on her face...
i'm happy and love to see that...